For those hanging in, we’re at the NOvember 2023 halfway point. Only 15 days of “no nut” to go.
While I operate automatic counters on my Current Status page, I don’t look at them often. While I’m doing an extended, locked session, I find it easier mentally not to track the days. But I looked today out of curiosity and the numbers surprised me. 132 days locked and 199 days since my last release.
The latter number is bigger since I was already doing the Chastity 90 challenge just before I met Lucie. And during the early part of our relationship, she required me to unlock, without a release, a few times. While I have self-locked for much longer, the 132 days feel impressive to me since it is the longest period I’ve stayed locked for a keyholder. And at the end of the month, that number will be 147 days, about 40 percent of 2023. And adding the 15 days to my current number will make it 214 orgasm-free days, or a little over 58 percent of 2023.
I was planning to do Denial December, but that was when I wasn’t planning on doing NOvember. Now I’m undecided. First, I think I need a break. But there is another reason. I’m not feeling confident that Michele is going to be a good fit as a long-term keyholder. Not that she isn’t a lovely person, but the regular teasing we discussed at the beginning hasn’t materialized.
I know she has a lot going on at the moment because we spoke about that last week. And maybe she doesn’t have the time to devote to me. I don’t top from the bottom, so I haven’t registered my dissatisfaction. Honestly, I don’t feel it is my responsibility. She is a dominant woman and a professional, so she should understand the dynamic. Also, two weeks into our first encounter, I just don’t feel we’re developing the chemistry I expected.
Lucie is, of course, a tough act for anyone to follow, but this feels more like inattentiveness on Michele’s part, rather than a lack of ability. The beauty of having a pro keyholder is you have no obligation to continue with them if things don’t go as expected. I only agreed to a month long trial, which I will complete. But barring some dramatic positive change in Michele’s approach, I’m not planning to continue past the end of the month. So, I may take some time off from chastity in December and then search for a new keyholder.