Since my decision to enter permanent 24/7 chastity, I have worn a chastity device for longer and longer periods, removing the device only for the few minutes of time required for the occasional deep cleaning. But by the decree of Lucie (my current keyholder), my life in permanent chastity takes an unexpected turn.
During the two weeks we’ve been together, Lucie has quizzed me almost daily about how chastity makes me feel, especially after I’ve completed one of her teasing tasks. Today she informed me she is making a change because she feels the cage causes me to focus too much on my penis, which is the opposite of what she believes is the purpose of caging a man’s penis.
Misplaced Devotion
A part of the problem in Lucie’s view is that I have become overly dependent on chastity devices to overcome my weaknesses in controlling my libido. And she wants to transfer my devotion to chastity devices to her, where my full devotion belongs.
As Lucie explained, she knows me well enough now to feel confident that I would never cheat while locked because I’m so devoted to the device. And that makes her curious to see how I might behave when I must depend on my devotion to her to resist my urges for sexual stimulation and release. She feels that following her instructions, without the aid of a chastity device, to not to touch for sexual pleasure, masturbate, or have orgasms without her consent is a far better test of obedience and devotion.
The New Decree
Lucie told me early on that she prefers locked periods of between 14-21 days (except for special occasions like Locktober or to correct bad behavior) followed by spending 4 days (for 14-days locked) or 6 days (for 21-days locked) unlocked. That’s because she believes it is more sensible and healthy to allow the unrestrained penis to experience regularly the natural stretching that occurs during nocturnal erections.
Also, in her view, while she is technically acting as my keyholder, we are actually doing chastity on my terms, not on her terms, and there is not much of a power exchange taking place. Lucie admitted if we remain on our present course, she will soon grow bored and unwilling to continue. She insists on full control. She wants to make all decisions about when I’m locked, when I’m unlocked, and if or when I get to have orgasms, especially when she wants ruined orgasms. And that’s fair. Lucie also loves impact CBT and believes that isn’t a good mix with chastity devices because of the risk of injury. So, she wants me unlocked sometimes so we can do the things she likes most. Like torturing my balls.
I Agree
What Lucie shared shocked me a little at first, but the more we talked about it, the more I found I agreed with her. She has given me the exact experience I asked for so I can see her point that we’ve been doing chastity on my terms. I realize how reluctant I am to spend much time unlocked because I prefer wearing a chastity device. I even feel a little uneasy when I’m not caged. But I don’t want to lose Lucie to boredom and go back to self-locking or searching for a new keyholder. Our first two weeks have been the best chastity experience I’ve ever had, and I’m not ready to give it up.
So, the changes take effect tomorrow. Lucie will tell me to unlock and I’ll spend six days unlocked. After the six days, she will tell me to put a chastity device back on and I will spend my first period of 7-21 days locked, according to Lucie’s whim, and then spend time unlocked again. She told me not to count on a strict schedule as sometimes it could be fewer than 7 days or over 21 days. It will all depend on her mood and what she has planned for me. That means we aren’t only keeping the piece I find most important, “indefinite chastity,” but Lucie is intensifying that aspect. Now I will literally never know how long I’ll remain locked or get released.
My Chastity 90 Commitment
One thing won’t change for now – orgasms. Since I had already told Lucie about my commitment to Chastity 90 before our arrangement, she agreed graciously to allow me to continue my attempt to keep the commitment. I just won’t be allowed to wear a chastity device for the full 90 days. And once Chastity 90 ends at the end of July, she alone will decide when, if, and how I experience orgasms thereafter. I won’t just be able to choose to abstain.
It’s an Unexpected Turn but I’m Excited
I wasn’t sure how I felt about Lucie’s decree at first. But after a little time to process it all, I find the impending changes exciting. And I want to please her. Everything she explained was correct, and I knew it. I think I have become a little too dependent on chastity devices to do the heavy lifting for me.
While it is a tiny bit scary to contemplate doing so in practice, obeying Lucie without depending on a device for backup is a far better test of my obedience and devotion to her. Another plus to spending more time unlocked is it opens up a lot of other options for Lucie’s torturous teasing efforts and not only the CBT she loves (me, not so much). As an example, she could require me to perform actual edges, and she mentioned that. Up to now, I’ve only done edges with a vibrator against the cage. And doing actual edges is something I know drives me insane with desire.
Because of the changes, I will soon update “My Current Status” page. I’ll still publish the number of days locked, though the locked periods won’t be nearly as impressive. Also, I think I’ll add a second counter for days since the last orgasm.
The adventurous sort, I am always open to trying new things, which in part probably explains why I got started with chastity to begin with. So, while the way I’ve done permanent chastity in the past will change, I’m also excited to see where it takes my relationship with Lucie. Already I’ve felt increasingly devoted to her and eager to please. Now I wonder if these changes might make me feel more submissive (not my primary nature) to her and feel of the power change dynamic more intensely? I suppose I’ll find out soon and I’ll post an update when it seems warranted.
Comments
I think you are fortunate. The REAL fun of chastity is the turning over of control. You are wise to recognize that you are getting a gift. Good on you! And good luck.