I suppose I’m in a contemplative mood today, even though it’s only my third day in chastity. I thought I’d start by sharing LJ’s rules for me in this post. The rules are few but straightforward. I’m sure most of them are similar to the rules other key holders set. The last two relate to the fact LJ is enforcing my chastity from a distance.
1. My cock belongs to LJ, period.
2. I must wear my chastity device at all times unless she instructs me to remove it. (A bonafide medical emergency the only exception.)
3. I can only come when given permission, and in the manner, LJ instructs me to do so.
4. When I’m unlocked, I may not touch “her” penis except as required for cleaning and must never play with “her” penis whether locked or unlocked without permission.
5. I am required to submit verification photos whenever LJ chooses to require them.
6. I must complete any assigned tasks given by LJ promptly and to her satisfaction.
Here is the contemplative part. As I was looking at the rules again today, I’ve agreed to follow, a few thoughts came to mind about exactly what accepting these rules means for me.
1. I no longer decide when and how often sexual stimulation or release happens for me.
2. I enjoy no entitlement to sexual stimulation or release.
3. I have no expectation of being allowed sexual stimulation or release.
4. Pleasure for me now is doing my best to show respect to LJ by obeying her in every respect, pleasing her, and submitting to her authority.
5. When and if LJ allows me sexual stimulation or release, it will be a gift.
When a man gives up control over the very thing that defines his manhood, he gives up a lot of other related things too. Most of them go against the grain of everything our culture says men are entitled to. Even though I’m only in my third day of enforced chastity, I already suspect accepting and embracing these realities will be among the hardest things I’ve ever done. And, I’ve done some hard shit during my lifetime.
Even so, at the very outset of this dive into male chastity, I feel deeply enforced chastity is something I don’t think I’ll ever want to give up.
Yes, LJ rules. She makes them. I live by them. I don’t think I’d have it any other way.