As she has a way of doing, LJ completely destroyed my “I’m not getting any sexual teasing” complaint from the previous post. Funny thing is I didn’t even bring it up. Sometimes, I think the woman knows men so well she always knows what I’m thinking. Anyway, here is what happened.
After publishing yesterday’s post, LJ and I were chatting. I asked her a question about something that wasn’t even related to the disappointment I have felt over the absence of teasing, and there being nothing sexual as a part of the dynamic thus far. In answering the question I asked, she went on to answer the questions I didn’t.
LJ told me that many of the guys she is the key holder are allowed sexual playtime as rewards when she feels they have earned it. She then told me this. I wasn’t there yet. I was in training, my first introduction to chastity, so my circumstances were very different. Experiencing denial, and learning to cope with the building sexual need and frustration was what I needed first before I’d be ready for teasing and the other sexual stuff. She believes learning to master that first will make me appreciate it all the more when she does allow me orgasms. More importantly, I will then truly understand that she is the only one that allows me pleasure and it never comes easily.
Makes sense. It was reassuring to know I’m not just being locked and forgotten, and that th3 dynamic between us will continue to evolve as I gain experience. And she was right. I am completely new to all this and haven’t earned anything. I just need to be patient and have faith and trust in her judgment. There was one thing about it that wasn’t so comforting.
The reminder I was in training seemed to make one thing clear. I shouldn’t expect any dramatic changes in how things go until I complete the thirty-day training program I signed up for. Like for example, I’m probably not going to get any full-on satisfying orgasms during the next 18 days. I may be lucky to get even another health and welfare ruined one. The jury is still out on the teasing part. But, you know something. Now, I’m content to wait for it because this has only increased my trust in LJ. I have to hand it to her. The woman knows what she is doing.
The very best part of getting answers to unasked questions is that it has removed the doubts I had that LJ and I may not be compatible enough to continue long-term after the 30 days of chastity training are done. Now, more than ever, I believe we are.